it's life speaking

today at ameba ...
i meet this customer . miss billabong
then while she was asking about a cat magnet. then her friend tap her on her shoulder..
and they started a conversation ..
i was obviously eavesdropping them hahas... so rude
so this friend of hers asked her how she was... common qns ... and then asked her where is she working at..
miss billabong answered that she is going to quit her job as a pharmactist... because she wanted to further her studies.. as she felt that it was her life long dream to be a vet and it was her passion too.
so she worked hard for 6 years, sold her house and car to earn a sum of money to support her life in sydney uni..
the best sentence that she said that kept echoing in my mind was : it was my dream.. thats why i am pursing it...

after that incident...
i felt motivated... well if she can.. why can't i?
i can be a saver to save up all my allowance...
it is my life speaking: wad u wan to be?
my answer: follow my dream to be a doctor! to save lifes no matter how long it takes nor how painful the process is... so long i can get happiness

i am so sick of love...
i hate it when all the topics are love , relationship all this fuck up things...

hello my new blog

welcome alive hopewithme.blogspot.com =D
i have jus abandon my previous blog but yet to delete it...

today is a boring day...
was it becos it was really a boring day? with a boring person ? has everything just became bland?

Kids should wake up from all fantasies ..
becos i was on the verge of realising that fantasies don't really exist ... no matter how i persudae myself to believe that i was lying ...
i came across my friend's post on face book
about the three saddiest story that maths tell:
1) the parallel lines- people who will nv cross path
2) the asymptotes- people who became close but will nv have a final destiny
3) the tangent lines- people that will only meet once and nv come together after that once

i love this post becos it is jus so true...

i was meant to enjoy myself with someone that i like..
but it turned out the wrong way.
things got bored.
after dinner.. we have ran out of ideas of how to spend time together.
movies? no point... waste money becos it wasn't interesting to me at all..
shopping? singapore shopping malls are flooded by the same shops that i got bored with..

why do others feel so happy together? yet i dun get the same feelings?
was it that my feelings have faded..
u aren't as sweet as i first met u ...
the one that counted those anniversaries from day to weeks to months...
i have lostcount.. being together is like taking everything for granted..
i wasn't how i was last time.. the girl that will prepare handmade gifts for her loves one.. the one that would just be happy seeing him...
i am lost... i tink this relationship is getting tasteless.. do u feel the same way?

if u were to see my post u would be saying how much u love me all this just to salvage this relationship .. but will u jus give me time to tink? whether it is time to let go ? at the rate we are going.. u are like a buddy to me.. just being there as and when i need u but with no special feelings...


advise? any medicine to prescribe?